note from phone.. dated: 31/12/07

does it actually have to feel this way? everyday i think of him.. about the things we've been through, imagining things i want us to go theough, how he looks lyk wen w/ me. his family, his friends, his exes, his crushes.. whoever, whatever that is about him.. even the worst things about him.. i kinda feel lke i'm missing him.. of course i can't see him, it's xmas vacation.. though i'm hoping there's this divine intervention that would happen between the 2 of us, but i guess it wont.. of all crushes i had, hes the only one whom had failed me regarding those hopeful coincidences i'm talking about.. you know, i alwys have this strange feeling that i'm going to meet my crush at a certain place, that's why my whole consciousness drags me to that place.. then i'm gonna see him.. but when it comes to him, i fail.. well maybe im just a bit paranoid hir coz i got to see him everytime, he's my classmate and my friend you know so its actually not a need for a divine intervention.. ryt??. i'd better think about that more often to wake myself up..