this post i want to dedicate to this person whom i wrongly despised all through the years. My aunt.
i think I've mentioned, if not talked about her in few of my posts. And I may say I'm not gonna retract the things I've written in there coz that's basically what i felt those times.
You see maturity comes with age. When you were little, you always look forward to your upcoming birthday and you practice adding up one tiny finger to your actual age when you're asked how old you are. But as you grow older, you begin to wish life could turn back so you could be a happy kiddo again.
I never felt these even when i was already in college, when life took a sudden twist right in front of my eyes, basically because you were there. I just wanted to hurry up, graduate, leave the house and leave you. Coz i was sick and tired of you. I couldn't wait to be independent, be by my own and one day won't look back coz I've reached far enough. Coz I've proven myself well. That I can get through life without the help of anybody. So I finished school by the age of 19. A little younger than the usual. An achievement- supposed to be. For i intend to leave you guys the soonest time.
Three years after and I moved to the city. Nothing fancy really. I began to realize that there are things you need to sacrifice so you could grow up. And for me, for us, it's the comfort of being home. In here I learned how to fit myself in a space same size as my room along with four other borders. Well, to cut all the drama short, I learned about living. And it's not as easy as I thought it is. Papa never taught me how to live it. You did.
In all honesty, what i'm really trying to say is that I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the times I have offended you. And most of all, in any way, showed disrespect towards you.
Things were rough between us. Admit it, we don't really get along. but one thing i realized is that even if we clash a hundred times, you would still be my aunt. And you are a family. And whether you like it or not, I am your niece. Deal with that! hehe. Kidding aside, I really won't wish for anything better that could have happened between the two of us. Coz if things were different, I might not realize your existence in my life.
And thank you. Thank you for the lessons. Thank you for teaching me the basic things i have to learn in school. you are after all, a teacher.
*i don't know why i'm writing this one. it's as if there's an epiphany that i'm gonna die before any of you.
Thank you for the letter/card you gave as a present to me on my graduation. today, i consider it as one the greatest gifts i have ever received, along with all the members of the family. even though i never even thanked you for that.
I really couldn't ask for more, i really shouldn't ask for more coz i have the best people whom i knew at the end of the day i could depend on to.
I just want you to know that i don't hate you. in fact, i'm really thankful for all the things you've done. people make mistakes, i have my own share of it and so do you.
Now, i have to strive harder not because i want to get far away, but to get closer. I hope someday i could provide you also the comfort of life you were willing to share with me. I hope someday, i could also stand strong whom you could lean on to when things gets a little dizzy for you too. i hope someday, you'll be more proud because you raised a child like me.
i think I've mentioned, if not talked about her in few of my posts. And I may say I'm not gonna retract the things I've written in there coz that's basically what i felt those times.
You see maturity comes with age. When you were little, you always look forward to your upcoming birthday and you practice adding up one tiny finger to your actual age when you're asked how old you are. But as you grow older, you begin to wish life could turn back so you could be a happy kiddo again.
I never felt these even when i was already in college, when life took a sudden twist right in front of my eyes, basically because you were there. I just wanted to hurry up, graduate, leave the house and leave you. Coz i was sick and tired of you. I couldn't wait to be independent, be by my own and one day won't look back coz I've reached far enough. Coz I've proven myself well. That I can get through life without the help of anybody. So I finished school by the age of 19. A little younger than the usual. An achievement- supposed to be. For i intend to leave you guys the soonest time.
Three years after and I moved to the city. Nothing fancy really. I began to realize that there are things you need to sacrifice so you could grow up. And for me, for us, it's the comfort of being home. In here I learned how to fit myself in a space same size as my room along with four other borders. Well, to cut all the drama short, I learned about living. And it's not as easy as I thought it is. Papa never taught me how to live it. You did.
In all honesty, what i'm really trying to say is that I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the times I have offended you. And most of all, in any way, showed disrespect towards you.
Things were rough between us. Admit it, we don't really get along. but one thing i realized is that even if we clash a hundred times, you would still be my aunt. And you are a family. And whether you like it or not, I am your niece. Deal with that! hehe. Kidding aside, I really won't wish for anything better that could have happened between the two of us. Coz if things were different, I might not realize your existence in my life.
And thank you. Thank you for the lessons. Thank you for teaching me the basic things i have to learn in school. you are after all, a teacher.
*i don't know why i'm writing this one. it's as if there's an epiphany that i'm gonna die before any of you.
Thank you for the letter/card you gave as a present to me on my graduation. today, i consider it as one the greatest gifts i have ever received, along with all the members of the family. even though i never even thanked you for that.
I really couldn't ask for more, i really shouldn't ask for more coz i have the best people whom i knew at the end of the day i could depend on to.
I just want you to know that i don't hate you. in fact, i'm really thankful for all the things you've done. people make mistakes, i have my own share of it and so do you.
Now, i have to strive harder not because i want to get far away, but to get closer. I hope someday i could provide you also the comfort of life you were willing to share with me. I hope someday, i could also stand strong whom you could lean on to when things gets a little dizzy for you too. i hope someday, you'll be more proud because you raised a child like me.
