dated 3/29/08 6:40 pm

i onCe agAin askEd foR a siGn!


i asKed God fOr a siGn on mY biRthdAy.. iT's quiTe impoSSibLe, buT mAybE thAt's why i CaLL it a siGn.. if hE wouLd cALL me On my biRthdAy anD grEet me.. i onLy askEd foR a cALL, noThinG eLSe. i don'T nEed a teXt oR gReEtinGs on fRiendster,i jUSt neEd a phOnE cALL fRom him.. iF noT, thiS thinG im fEeLing fOr a Long time is hoPELess.. imA foRgEt aLL abOut thoSe tEaSings anD pRetEnsionS.. imA foRgEt aLL my hopEs fOr him, fOr us.. why? coz it'S huRting mE.. so mUch thaT i'M aFrAid i cOuLdn't bEaR it fOr a Long timE.. i'm noT uSeD to thEse FeeLings bEfore and i don'T hAve any idEa hoW to dEAL with it., thAt's whY it huRts..

i aLwayS askEd God foR siGns anD he aLwayS givEs me poSitivE onEs.. i'm conFusEd.. mAybE, im juSt LikE impAtiEnt oR somEthing.. mAybE i juSt nEed fAith.. i knoW it'S so kuLet na, pEro ok, thiS is thE Last.. iF hE LikEs me thAt muCh and hAs pLans on tELLing mE thAt hE LikEs mE and if i'M SpEciAL enouGh foR him, hE wouLd cALL me anD gReEt mE on thiS sPEciAL dAy oF minE.. imAgine, it'S my 18th biRthDay and i'm ExpEcting oR hoPing For a Guy to GreEt me.. anD it'S him.. so sPeCiaL dAy oF minE.. so whY cAn't he GrEet mE?


mAybE i cAn gEt thRough.. i juSt nEed to knoW.. i juSt nEed a siGn.. God pLeaSe hELp me.. thiS is thE Last, rEgArding thiS matTer.. it'S a moRe pErsonAl siGn now, juSt givE me thiS siGn.. eiThER hE'LL cALL mE oR noT.. juSt thiS onE.. pLeasE.. i'LL waiT..