Tuesday, April 8, 2008

dated 2/6/08 1:28 pm

must i hope for something??

she has a girlfriend already.. though, he admits na he doesn't love the girl at all it still hurts.. hnd ko alam kng ma-ha-happy ba ako or matuturnoff kasi at the first place pang-play lng niya yung girl.. i believe na no matter how a person flirts the whole day, there's still this special person whom she thinks about before going to bed at night.. unfortunately for me i don't think im that special to him.. he treats me extraspecial most of the time but i know i'm not that extraspecial in his life.. i'm just a friend and a mere friend..

although sa totoo lng i dnt consider him naman na extraspecial sa buhay ko.. he's my friend.. sabihin na lng natin na special friend ksi nga dba i feel something different about him..

ewan ko, hindi ko alam, bkit parang nafafall out na ako sa kanya.. he's too mature to act and think naman.. kung gusto talga niya ako, he could have done something na diba? napapagod na akong maghintay sa kanya.. konti n lang talga.. sa barkada, hes often the one who advises our friends about their love life's.. about what seems to be right to do., and he's most of the time right naman,. so why can't he do anything about his 'reAL' lovelife then.. if ever that lovelife would pertain to me.. he's not doing anything, except the things he's been doing for the past 9 months.. that's a clear clue!.. i'm not of his interest.. i think he knows what he should do if ever he really likes somebody because he sounds too mature about decisions in relationships, and he's not doing it to me.. probably, he's doing it for somebody else..

i'm SUCH a friend!..

can i ask for another clue? i just wanted to feel loved at valentines day.. i hope could find love on that day.. sana maging happy ako that day.. sana hindi ako madissapoint that day.. sana...

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