he onCe askEd mE a fAvoR if i couLd reSeaRch somEthinG foR him sinCe i hAve mY inTerNet conNeCtion aT homE.. oF couRsE i Can't saY no.. why wouLd i sAy no to a fAvoR? evEryboDy askS mE foR a faVor to sEArch somEthinG in thE nET, so whY wouLd i sAy no to him? OnLy to finD ouT juSt a whiLE ago thAt thE rEsEArch wAs foR thiS giRL whom hE hAd fALLen inLovE wiTh.. shE waS hiS bEstfriEnd in hiGh schoOL and hE feLL in LovE with hER., buT thE giRL rejEctEd him.. thAt rEsEarch wAS foR hER buT i wAs thE onE who did it., who am i?
although, hE hAs a giRLfriENd.. buT he conFirmEd juSt thiS aftERnoon thAt he stiLL LikEs thE giRL, his bestfriend,. hiS fiRst LovE.. ofcouRsE, thE feELing is stiLL thErE knoWing thAt hE's noT seriouS with hiS girLfriEnd., hE toLd mE thAt, i juSt don'T knoW if hE reALLy mEAnt it.,
buT hE's LikE my fiRst Love.. i think.. is hE? i'vE hAd seveRAL crushEs alReady buT thiS onE is so difFerEnt.. maybE beCausE he mAkeS me feEL LikE hE's intEreStED in mE, at timEs.. beCauSe at thE fiRst pLace thEre waS no afFection oR somEthinG whEn i fiRst sAw him.. hE waS a puRe stRangER anD i nEver intEndEd to be friEnds with him.. hE wAs juSt a cLassmAtE.. buT soOn enouGh, hE drEw cLosEr anD cLosEr to us.. to mE.. yEs, espEciALLy to mE.. i tRiEd so hArd to gEt mySeLF awAy fRom him.. i evEn tRieD haTing him anD saY neGativE thinGs abouT him juSt so i couLd givE mySeLf rEasOnS whY i shOuLd stAy awAy fRom him.. noW, mY beStfriEnds don'T LikE him beCausE of whAt i sAid 8 monthS ago.. i wAntEd to gEt aWay anD pRotEct mySeLf buT unFortunAtELy anD obviouSLy, i fAiLed,. i'm trAppEd.. hoW cAn hE do it? juSt whEn i deCidEd to acCept thAt i'm faLLinG foR him, hE droppEd mE..
hE hAd no fRienDs thEn, i wAs thE onE who intRoduCed him to evERyboDy.. i wAs his fiRst rEsoRt.. i wAs thE fiRst onE to unDerstAnd him.. i waS hiS fiRst friEnD.. anD i'vE faLLen foR him.. And i thouGht hE wAs too beCauSe we wErE cLosE anD hE waS so swEet.. hE oftEn teAsEs mE, hE givEs mE huGs oF whiCh i wAnt to conSidER as friEndLy huGs.. hE ofTen mAKEs eyE conTact.. hE mAkes fun oF mE moSt of thE timE anD stArts by stArinG at mE foR as LonG as i suRrEnDer to stArE at him bAck.. hE evEn conTinuEs staRinG at mE aftEr i suRrEndeR.. hE'S aLwaYs nEar mE., hE's aLwayS thERe.. oR was i just hALLucinAtinG oR somEthing?
noW everYthinG hAs chAngEd,. wAs it beCauSe i hAng ouT wiTh the pERsonS whOm hE doeSn't LikE.? thoSe pERsonS who happEnEd to bE my fRienDS foR yEars.? i cAn't stAy awAy wiTh my fRienDS.. i cAn't stAy aWay wiTh thEm juSt foR hiS compAny.. i mEan, hoW muCh assuRanCe do i hAve? i couLd stAy aWay.. of couRsE i cOULD, buT foR whAt? fOr whAt rEason? i don'T evEn knoW if hE LikEs mE oR noT.. hoW couLd i stAy? why shouLd i stAy? anD as timE pasSes by iT feELs LikE hE's founD somEbody as my repLacemEnt., i feEL LikE hE's hAppy witH hiS nEwfounD fRienDS.. althouGh we aRe stiLL fRienDs buT iT's noT LikE thAt anymoRE.. i don'T knoW,. noW hE hAs hiS fRienDS aLrEaDy anD iT fEeLS LikE hE doEsn't nEeD mE anymoRE.. so whY shouLd i stAy, whEn hE'S staRtinG to givE mE rEasonS whY i shouLd go aWay..
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