i just wanna scReam On you.. dOn't you reaLLy caRe about mE? evER? i knew i got ovER you aLreadY,. i know, my feeLingS aren't the same as it was befoRe.. i already accepted you not being with me as a fact aLready.. i'm not hoping you'd come up one day and tell me how you feel about me.. i knoW all the thinGs happened between us two were just heLL of a pAst aLreaDy.. but why in the heLL woRLd can i not FORGET you??
why do i find myself lonely in the middle of a happy crowd searching for your glance, silently wishing you're with me or i'm with you.. why do i find myself jealous of the couples surrounding mE, wishing it could have been you i was with.. why do i find myself writing entries about you in my bLog, pouring out my sentiments and heartaches.. i thought being apart from you would be easy for mE.. i thought staying away from you would make a difference.. i thought hating you would save myself from pain..
thEn i found myself in the middle of these thinGs, confused.. maybe i'm over you already, its just that i wasn't able to find somebody nor something else as your replacement.. mAybe now i only got an empty souL which is much Worse.. which may be the reason why it seems to be hard to understand.. which maybe the reason why i feel lonely in the midst of the unproven relief i could ever get from your inaccurate love.,
i wanted to free myself from you... i wAnted you out.. i wAnted to turn away, Leave if possibLe, if thAt's the onLy soLution i got.. FoRGEt... pRobLem is.. i dOn't knoW hoW... woRsE, i just cAn't..
