when i close my eyes, the more i see tings clearly.. what people don't know is that being a nurse or a doctor requires a lot more than mere intelligence.. to become one, you must have a strong will to overcome conscience bugging experiences.! what i hate most about it is the fact that you go to work half knowing that you can kill a person unintentionally.. i hate closing my eyes everytime i go to sleep and see the faces of patients dying of hope and literally dying.. as you cram to save their life, only to find out afterward, it was actually your fault of missing to check their oxygen status.. (what a pain!) And suffer from unending blames and dignity degrading looks from the relatives.!!
i hate to think that in as much as how hard i try, a person like me could never be perfect, as i risk someone else's life in order for me to grow up professionally,. coz in dis job, UNFORTUNATELY, putting someone's life in the brink of death is the most effective way of learning a lesson..
i would like to believe though that every killing episode isn't solely my fault and fate has something to do with it.. besides, they wouldn't be in the hospital if they aren't dying anyway.. but how more often could i insist that to my conscience.? how more often will i push away my drive of quitting? considering that i haven't even started anything yet, and i'm totally depressed right now.. i wonder how may faces of dying and died person will i yet to see until i reach my dream.. sigh
way back then, i said nursing is the easiest way out of the country.. yes, for greener pasture, what the heck was i thinking?! now, i'll say nursing is the easiest way to go out of your mind.. perfectly insane!.
i hate to think that in as much as how hard i try, a person like me could never be perfect, as i risk someone else's life in order for me to grow up professionally,. coz in dis job, UNFORTUNATELY, putting someone's life in the brink of death is the most effective way of learning a lesson..
i would like to believe though that every killing episode isn't solely my fault and fate has something to do with it.. besides, they wouldn't be in the hospital if they aren't dying anyway.. but how more often could i insist that to my conscience.? how more often will i push away my drive of quitting? considering that i haven't even started anything yet, and i'm totally depressed right now.. i wonder how may faces of dying and died person will i yet to see until i reach my dream.. sigh
way back then, i said nursing is the easiest way out of the country.. yes, for greener pasture, what the heck was i thinking?! now, i'll say nursing is the easiest way to go out of your mind.. perfectly insane!.
