Valentine

i guess, i'm a high maintenance girl. or maybe just a person with overflowing pride. maybe i'm picky or perfect-driven. maybe i'm hard to please or just plain confusing or boring. 

it's valentines day today, and i find myself blogging. it shouldn't be much of a big deal coz its been like this for nearly 24 years. but i'm left wondering how happy must it feel like for a lot of people are throwing themselves out for it.

how can i be worthy of such? for that man who'll wrap off his coat on you when your cold. or that man who'll sneak out a phone call from a meeting to check out if you have eaten. that man who'll hold your hand when you're sick. or that man who'll drive you home even if you live in opposite end of the boulevard. that man who'll say yes even if you blurted out a no, coz he knows you actually mean yes but was so shy to say so. that man who'll stare at you and smiles for reasons you both don't know. that man who'll be willing to jump into a fight when he sees you're helplessly in trouble. that man who'll make you laugh even on those day that you don't even want to smile. or that man who'll cross oceans for a kiss. 

when can i be worthy of it? when can i be worthy of that man who knows what he wants and sticks into it. for that man who never wavers.

maybe i'll wait for him for tomorrow. or maybe forever. maybe he's just somewhere down the street. or maybe he doesn't even exists.

today is a valentines day. and honestly speaking, my heart's a little broken today..

have a happy valentine's day everyone!