its early in the morning and i'm fuckin pissed off!! i wonder how you'd ever get sooo mean and rude and heartless!.. f*ck you bitch.! i hate you too much.. stop bothering me!
you talk like you don't need any of us.. well let me tell you this, i quited living with you so long time ago and the reason why i've been putting up a show is because of my family who also happens to be your only family... damn it! you see, i don't want to hate you anymore.. believe me, i don't want to.. coz, i intend to not care about you!. i don't care, what you do, i don't care what you say!. for the last 21 years of bullying me, i'm done with you.. oh my, i can't wait to be done with you!.
oh so i see, i suddenly begin to realize why you're being mean with my father these days.. you're done messing with my mom, you're done ruining my life and so now it's my father's turn?? well, there really is something with you!!
i've been hearing you mumbling rubbish at me at 4 in the morning.. i've been hearing you complaining about me to my father.. so now, i'm awake!! why can't you tell all those sh*ts in front of my face? thinking about it, i just wanna barge on the tv set in your face!. Forgive me Lord, but i just can't help starting my day being violent!.. i can't believe, that even before i opened my eyes, you already made me feel worthless!. you have that magic in you, huh? what a TALENT! damn it!. come on! the time when you were messing with me, i cried.. a lot.. now, i got over it.. but now that you're messing with my dad, i just wanna slash of your neck.. if it's just me, come on, bring it on!. but why does it have to be my parents now??
you act as if i'm the worst kid ever raised up by their parents.. why do you make them feel like they are incompetent parents? for me their one and only biggest mistake was letting me not to fight back when someone tries to bully me.. you complain about me as if you did something good to me.. well maybe, there's one thing good that you've contributed.. you are the sole person that reminds me how eager i am to get out of this place, leave everyone and become someone.! if one day, i'll die before someone else in the family, before you.. i wish someone would retrieve the articles i wrote in my blog and read this.. to the person the society would refer to as my aunt, my father's sibling next to him, the one who was unfortunately there ever since childhood.. you, my "aunt", YOU RUINED MY LIFE!! happy??? coz i think it's just now that i'm admitting it.. that my life has once been ruined and that is you who is responsible for it!. i hope you're happy!! you nailed it bitch.! like TOTALLY!.
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