about 2 weeKs ago, you hAd me feeLing stupid.. you hAd me humiLiated in fRont of pEopLe i knoW even the onEs i don't.. mAybe up to this timE you stiLL cAn't fiGure ouT thAt i am embarrassed when you do thAt.. you taLk about my LackinGs to mY frienDs (to the onEs who knoWs mE best) and i feEL so smaLL in fRont of theM.. teLL me, who arE you to juDge me.? why do you Act as if you know me most, when i knoW deep doWn insiDe of mE thAt you dOn't.. woRse, it' affectinG me as much as im expecting it to bE.. you Get my thinGs, against my wiLL.. you hAd my hAndkerchiEf, my pictuRe.. and you teLL thEm i gave it to you just beCause i nevEr exerTed too muCh effoRt to recovEr it bAck.. you know why? bEcause i dOn't wAnt to bEg you too muCh and mAKe you feeL so impoRtant.. i Can aLways have a rePLacement, i thought.. i thought.. but i was actuaLLy wRong,. thEre ain't no repLacements in this woRLd.. even hAndkerchiefs can't be repLace by hAndkerchief same as the oLd onE.. i aLso thouGht i couLd repLace you just Like that.. i thought i couLd,. i was wrong..
Just beCause i Let you do thinGs doEsn't meAn i wAnt you to do thEm.. somEtimes you juSt cant do anything even if you tRy.. haven't you thought thAt mAybe i'm too tiRed of these games aLready thAt i don't even cAre to protEst.. thAt mAybe i'm huRting too muCh to even objEct.. i handed you my phone.. when you gave it bAck, my kEycHain was gonE.. finE! it's a KEYCHAIN.. A @!$#&\@! DAMN KEYCHAIN.. you teLL, they teLL me it'S immatuRe to act the way i did.. mAybe i overreacted.. i don't know.. buT why do you do thAt.? Why can'T you be carefuL when it comEs to my stuff.. whEn it comEs to mE.. you Lost my simpLe keychain in just a shoRt momEnt, hoW crushed wouLd i bE if i hAd trusted you my Love.. wouLd you Care foR it? you couLd have droppEd mE off just Like that aLso.. to you, to somE peopLe it's so simple.. it's chiLd-Like..
if i wEre i chiLd an ice creAm wouLd have soLved the heaRtache.. but i'm not a chiLd.. i'm a giRL who Learned to LovE somebody as hEatLess as you.. so i decided to snob you foR as Long as i wanT... foR as Long as i Can.. coz being kind to you wouLd mAke you do thEse thinGs repEatedLy.. wouLd onLy mAke waY foR moRe humiLiatiOns and emBarrAssments on my pArt.. i needed to rEvive myseLf.. i wAnt my seLf bAck.. maybe somEtimes i needed to dO these thinGs foR you to Learn hoW to respect mE aLso.. its juSt sAd that you hAve to Learn hoW to do it the hArd way.. you dOn't have any iDea how it kiLLs me insiDe, whenevEr i Look away when you smiLe at me.. whEn you appRoach mE.. but mAybe i reaLLy hAve to do this.. i just hope i wont regRet it somEday.. i hopE you wouLd somEday unDErstand,.
but iF it wOn't, mAybe this aCt couLd heLp me to gEt riD of you.. if i cAn't gain your respEct, mAybe it wouLd be better noT to hAve you anymoRe (at aLL..)
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